I’m thinking about signing up for Copa Nova later this month, but I’m a bit undecided. I’m still not in great shape, but that’s slowly improving. I’ve been feeling pretty decent while rolling in class some of the time, but not always. And if I preregister to save money, if history is any indication, I will come down with some exotic disease the day before the event and not be able to compete.
Then there’s the issue of the nerves that hit me when I compete. I honestly feel like my heart is about to beat out of my chest, I forget my technique, I forget to breathe, and I gas out like a chain smoking 300-pound couch potato after a sprint to the refrigerator. Yikes.
I’m also reluctant to shell out up to $90 to find out that there’s nobody in my weight class and that I get just one match with a girl who outweighs me by 50 lbs. Sadly, it’s happened. It didn’t go well.
I don’t think the nerves will ever really go away, especially with the small number of competitions I’m able to get to, but the few times I have competed, I’ve noticed that I learned things about my game that I wouldn’t necessarily have learned by rolling with my regular training partners in class. I know that this is something I need to do repeatedly to get good at, though, which is why I think I will keep trying.